From lovers to friends, from English to BM

Did you really think I was just gonna let it be? Let them turn English in Science and Maths in our primary and secondary school to BM without voicing my opinion?

Nope. Sorry.

First of all, no matter what Mahathir did during his time as prime minister, he did at least one thing write.

He changed Science and Maths from BM to English.

So why are we going back now? What happened to all those talks of globalisation and how our graduates should have the best skills necessary in order to compete in the international market for employment?

Its come to nothing. And I'll tell you why. We're lazy. They say they're doing this because results are slipping. So why don't we just give up, people, and go back to BM? We're too lazy aren't we?

Too lazy to increase English proficiency in the rural areas of Malaysia. Because, I'm sorry, but that's the reason why we're doing this. What happened to all those talks of training teachers to be better English teachers, to teach grammar to students, to make English a compulsory passing subject?

I mean, I'm sorry, but I didn't know the difference between a linking verb and an action verb until I watched it on Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader! How embarrassing.

We're obviously regressing while the rest of the world progresses. Instead of trying to preserve our national language, (which I agree that every single Malaysian should know) we should be trying to develop our country. By training our citizens to be better English speakers and allowing Malaysia to be taken seriously by other, developed countries. And by initiating progress, not stopping it.

As you can see, I'm very annoyed. But that's not all.

See, MAS has decided to stop flying to New York.

Look, I don't blame them. Its not making enough business for them, and they're already losing money, what more in this economy. No matter what the government says, we're affected, trust me. And they are still flying to LA.

But over 70 (or is it 90?) airlines fly to New York. Either to JFK or Newark. Not because its profitable, quite the contrary, flying to New York seems to lose money for airlines somehow, I can't imagine why. But these are all major airlines and flying to these places is what makes them a force to be reckoned with. New York is an iconic destination, along with Paris, London, Rome, etc.

I mean, now going to the East Coast of the US is done with. We're gonna have to use other airlines if we want to go to the East Coast of the US. Which sucks to me, because while I have no real intentions of going to NY any time soon, I'd like to have the option. I like MAS. Students are affected. The headquarters of UN is also in NY, so we have people flying in from there too, for business. So yeah, lost all that traffic.

I think it was a mistake, but if this is what MAS had to do to stay afloat, so be it.

Its just that this is yet another sign of regression in Malaysia.

The high before the fall

Dear Dinesh

Thank you for attending our recent interview as part of the application process for the medical course (MBBS) at Monash University, Sunway campus.

We are pleased to inform you that your interview score was sufficient for your application to be considered further for this course.

Please ensure that you send all other information that are pre requisites (Pre university, ISAT and, if relevant, IELTS) to us as soon as possible. Decisions about offers will only be made after we have received all the required information.





Um. Yay?

The heart wants what it wants

"So, do you think doctors should be leaders or followers?"

"Um," looks around blankly, wishing he was at home, sleeping. "Both?" (Proceeds to crap relentlessly)




Yup. That was my Monash interview.

Didn't I tell you to wish me luck?

Heal the World

I feel like a child who can't get the candy he wants.

Because his mother turns to him and says we can't afford it. Except she didn't need to, because he knew it all on his own.

I'm sorry, but I have to say something. I have such disdain for our government (okay, waiting for the ISA arrest soon) that I'm really beginning to hate our country.

Yes, yes, I know I'm not supposed to, I know I'm supposed to love where I come from and all that. But how can you make your peace with a government that is so corrupt, that shows and promotes inequality in all of its laws. How can you co-exist with people (including your family members) who share that same prejudice?

Many of you go overseas for the fun of it. To mingle, to escape our Asian culture, to immerse yourselves in new situations and learn to adapt accordingly. And I understand, truly I do.

I, on the other hand, just want to get away from this place. Get away from all the immense tension and divide between every one of us, all because of our nation's laws and regulations. We are to blame, we indirectly set the laws of our country. Democracy, both a blessing and a curse.

I know, I know we should all love the nation we were born in, in order to change it for the better. But I've lost all hope of turning this country around.

I'm not a very political person. At least in Malaysia, I never was enthralled. It always struck me as a little bit hopeless, we're all trying to pick the lesser of two evils. And we should have better choices. There are just no options for us, the minority groups that need to fight to survive.

Sometimes, I do wish I was born somewhere else in this planet, somewhere progressive, where this nation's outdated values and laws would horrify its citizens and cause them to shudder with disgust. But, that was not the case and I have to learn to accept that.

I just know that I might not be able to take a couple more years in this country. I'm reaching my breaking point. Hey, at least I wasn't born in Iran. (No offense, but Iran seems to be even more regressive than Malaysia)

Ironically, I just got a reminder on my phone reminding me that I have an interview with Monash Malaysia on the 2nd of July. For medicine. 5 more years in Malaysia.

Wish me luck.


This post was written when I was in an extremely bad mood. I honestly don't know if I'll feel this way tomorrow so take it with a grain of salt. I'm just annoyed.

"This is it, this is my last tour, this is my curtain call"

The King of Pop is dead. He died today of a heart attack.

I was never a huge fan of Michael Jackson the person, but there was a time when I loved Michael Jackson the musician. His message songs were hard to ignore, my personal favourites were Black or White and Earth Song.

I'll never forget how for a week, or a month, I don't really remember, we used to gather around the television and watch his music videos, one a day. Thriller changed how music videos were perceived.

And no matter who you are, the death of Michael Jackson is definitely a monumental moment.

Lets just hope he will be remembered for his music and not his tumultuous personal life. After all, isn't that what really matters?

Rest in peace, Michael Jackson.

Just a little late

Today was the first day since exams ended that I didn't go out.

I loved it.
It was so peaceful, just doing everything I did during exams, but without the guilt and the knowledge that it would end soon.

Right now, I'm so blissed out. I just figured something out, and it feels like a huge burden was lifted off my shoulders.

See, that's what's so good about staying at home. You get to think. Make sense of everything.



On another note, the Jonas Brothers is on the next cover of Rolling Stones. Does anyone else think this is such an insult to Adam Lambert? Poor thing.




Oh yeah, I watched Transformers. Not as good as the first one, in my opinion, too much action it kinda all blurred into one, and a lot of humor which I loved (well, for the most part anyway).

I really wouldn't mind watching it again. I mean, its Transformers.




Okay, bye guys I think I'm going to sleep now.
Sorry for the boring posts but hey this is a blog about my life. Yeah, it's kinda boring, you just figured that out?

Am I really going to do this?
Well, it'd give me something to do anyway.
Anyone have a couple hundred dollars?

I never meant to start a war

I'm sorry, I know I owe you guys an ecstatic "A-Levels is over... woohoo!" post but I just can't seem to publish the one I wrote.

The truth is, I'm freaking scared.

Now that it's over, nobody is asking me 'when does it end' any longer. Or 'aren't you glad its going to end soon?'.

They're asking 'what're you going to do now? what next?'

And I don't know about you, but that freaks me out, because I really have no idea, I really don't. I don't have an answer to their questions any more.

And I hate that.

I'm scared. No, I'm fucking terrified.

Stop asking me please. This is my answer : I don't fucking know.

Now leave me alone.

It's okay, really.
You don't have to see it if you don't want to, or if you can't.
I know. And one other person knows.
And that's good enough for me.